The Uncertainty

The uncertainty of can be overwelming and enough to break down into a pit of insanity. I've often wondered why life has to be so difficult. And those who beat you down for believing so are usually the brainiacs who have it so easy or a payed education for them. When offered this life it is not handed out evenly with a set amount of skills for everyone, unfortionatly. We are not all made for hard labour, retail and many of us are not "college material" so to speak. When I think about my future I become completely conflicked, lost and angered as my mind wanders too much into itself. What do I want to be? Who will I become? What do I have to offer? Will I make a difference? All these questions we all share and they battle in our minds fighting for the answers. But I've always known who I was, to be honest, I guess not many people can say that or so I've noticed. I've always felt the same way about everything, always believed in the same things, liked the same things though people around me seem to constantly change. It confuses me, were they not themselves before? A phase? Which is human and everyone goes through phases but the degree in which some people go through apsolutely amazes me. A complete 360. People keep waiting for me to change, family and friends asking, "you still in that "goth phase?" very unjust and stereotypical question indeed. But I've never considered myself anything other then just me. And of course this makes you get bitched at because apparently I'm not liking what a "goth" should like, well excuse me. I guess I forgot to read the brochure. How can you do that? Break a person down into a box? Is that even possible? If so, wow aren't we the simple minded..