I personally would have partied a lot harder but not many of them were really up to it but all in all it was a good visit.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Halloween
One of my favourite times of the year. A time when everything I enjoy is part of the celebration. I miss trick or treating, so many fun memories, candy and movies. The weekend of halloween was spent in Ottawa at a friends house. It was quite fun but all the walking was a killer. She doesnt live right down town so its constant walking and bus rides = annoying lol. Friday we went out for supper, saturday we spent some of the day walking around downtown and then we went to the club that night - halloween themed of course. I picked up some awsome white contacts and some custom vampire teeth.
It was cold so the walking at night was a killer but thankfully saturday was actually kinda nice. Of course I like cold weather so the only killer was sleeping at their house, its awkwardly warm in there.. kinda reminded me of a sauna - it was humid. I like recycling the air in the house, not living off the stale air.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Bring On The Fall and Good News
With summer finally coming to its end we have been able to enjoy the outdoors. The AC finally off and the open windows bringing in the refreshing cool breeze; how I've missed it. However with the cold coming on this also means snow is not far behind and although the winter is very beautiful the cold around here is a bit extreme. Without working, this year has gone by so fast, it really puts things into perspective.
Quite a bit of news I have gathered recently to share. The first is that my best friend Sarah is now engaged to her long time boyfriend, Craig. They are planning to have the wedding in the winter of 2013, January I believe. Whats exciting is that Sarah made me the maid of honor lol I feel special =) and I've never been in a wedding before. The engagement party will be late this October and held in Arnprior. Sarah's parents are thrilled - well atleast she said her father was but Craigs parents are not as like minded. His parents to me have always come off a bit like a wealthy stuck up family. It seems that because Craig was their last born he's like their baby and I've talked to Sarah about this aswell and we think they are the type of people that look down on people that don't make as much money and Sarah's family makes no where near what they make. None the less they will have to deal and be happy for their son or simply waste their lives with hatred and stay bitter. Either way the wedding will go on.
Older picture of Sarah and I at our old apartment.
Quite a bit of news I have gathered recently to share. The first is that my best friend Sarah is now engaged to her long time boyfriend, Craig. They are planning to have the wedding in the winter of 2013, January I believe. Whats exciting is that Sarah made me the maid of honor lol I feel special =) and I've never been in a wedding before. The engagement party will be late this October and held in Arnprior. Sarah's parents are thrilled - well atleast she said her father was but Craigs parents are not as like minded. His parents to me have always come off a bit like a wealthy stuck up family. It seems that because Craig was their last born he's like their baby and I've talked to Sarah about this aswell and we think they are the type of people that look down on people that don't make as much money and Sarah's family makes no where near what they make. None the less they will have to deal and be happy for their son or simply waste their lives with hatred and stay bitter. Either way the wedding will go on.
Older picture of Sarah and I at our old apartment.
So the Engagement party will be next month the day before halloween. Sarah said they are contemplating going out for chinese and then going back to her grandma's because she has a large yard to set up a gathering outside.
So on another interesting note, this saturday I'm heading to Carp for a friends surprise birthday party. It will be nice to get out of arnprior and hang out with some friends. Im not a huge fan of sleeping at others houses as I ALWAYS get horrible sleep but we shall see how it goes. I believe Malcolm and I are getting the only other matteress lol. I really hope anyway. I've never been to their new apartment, the only kinda crappy thing is that its probably all males.. except his girlfriend. That many boys are very boring to hang around if they are mainly into video games.. which they are *shutters*. So I will just have to stay drunk enough to keep myself entertained lol. But who knows maybe we wont do too much of the games this time, we dont always do but... when we go to some of the other guys houses its watching video games being played for 8 hours... omg simple minded much? I need some fucking stimulation lol. It will be nice going somewhere other then our house though. Mainly they come up here and its hard when your down stairs neighbour is a complete cunt.
Friday, August 12, 2011
New Piercings New Changes
Although I have little to do everyday I am able to choose what I want to do and thats all that I care about. My E.I runs out mid October but Im not overly worried.. I know something will come up. Im going to start out part time as jumping right back into working will feel like a huge pain in the ass.. then again working anytime feels like a pain in the ass. Apparently just down the street from our apartment theres a new building they are fixing up to become a dog wash lol. If that does end up happening I'll throw in a resume there. Working at Pet Valu for 3 years prior will be a nice push to get me in.
My days arent filled with much, sitting around watching TV or on the internet but truth is Id do alot more if it wasnt 80 out all the time. Anything over 70 out is honestly hot enough to make me severely uncomfortable. Ontario has been going through horrible humidity lately, today was the first semi-good day. Less humidity and almost a bit chilly. It was a wonderful feeling, that chill that I had waited soo long to feel once again.
A few months ago I joined a facebook family group, 'Sin On Skin' . As you probably have seen the links at the side of my blog. A community supporting and advertizing all body modifications for men and woman. Our group has not been around for long so we still have a lot to do. But we plan on getting our name out, an official website, future group gatherings and much more. Check us out with both of the links on my blog. Although the number of people with modifications are growing, they are still widely looked down on and we are judged based on this appearance. Or goal is to further gain acceptence, educate people and have a place for people to chat and gain friends.
On the topic of modifications about a month ago I got my septum pierced at the Petawawa Tattoo/Bike show. There were tattoo/piercing companies from all around Ontario set up at stations and the bikes were layed out across the center of the room. Competitions for best back piece tattoo, largest tattoo, coloured tattoo and many more. I got my septum done at 'Bad Kitty' from Quebec, she was in her young to mid 20's and had been piercing for 12 years, she was excellent and very friendly.
My days arent filled with much, sitting around watching TV or on the internet but truth is Id do alot more if it wasnt 80 out all the time. Anything over 70 out is honestly hot enough to make me severely uncomfortable. Ontario has been going through horrible humidity lately, today was the first semi-good day. Less humidity and almost a bit chilly. It was a wonderful feeling, that chill that I had waited soo long to feel once again.
A few months ago I joined a facebook family group, 'Sin On Skin' . As you probably have seen the links at the side of my blog. A community supporting and advertizing all body modifications for men and woman. Our group has not been around for long so we still have a lot to do. But we plan on getting our name out, an official website, future group gatherings and much more. Check us out with both of the links on my blog. Although the number of people with modifications are growing, they are still widely looked down on and we are judged based on this appearance. Or goal is to further gain acceptence, educate people and have a place for people to chat and gain friends.
On the topic of modifications about a month ago I got my septum pierced at the Petawawa Tattoo/Bike show. There were tattoo/piercing companies from all around Ontario set up at stations and the bikes were layed out across the center of the room. Competitions for best back piece tattoo, largest tattoo, coloured tattoo and many more. I got my septum done at 'Bad Kitty' from Quebec, she was in her young to mid 20's and had been piercing for 12 years, she was excellent and very friendly.
The Bad Kitty The Wizzards Den
My septum piercing didnt hurt as much as I anticipated, putting the ring through hurt more then the process itself. I had always wanted my septum done but I never knew if it would look good and my family always hated the piercing but I gave in and couldnt wait any longer. I love it. The healing process also hurts worse then having it done. When the steal grinds through my flesh when its dryed out or has crusties its almost insane. But overall Im so happy I got it done and its very close to being healed now.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
A Change
I seem to have a really hard time writting on these often lol. My brains always wondering in so many places half the time if I wrote it would be a lot of random paragraphs about the confuzing jibberish flying around in my head. These past 8 months have been the most exciting months for me in a long time. I've been on E.I as the place I worked shut down. I've been able to enjoy myself. Really makes you aware of how much working is a waste of your 1 chance to enjoy life. My money runs out half way through October and I have no idea where Im going to go... if I have to go back to retail, I may just have to hang myself lol. Thankfully right when I lost my job my boyfriend of 6 and a half years now got an excellent job, apprentice technician/electrician =D
As I said I've been able to enjoy myself more freely over the last 8 months. Relaxing and going out as I please. Im pleased to say that we now for the past 3-4 months have owned a 55" HD Plasma Flatscreen and is almost entirely payed off now. BUT funny enough we have no couch LOL how? We had a futon, it broke..we bought another..the bars broke! SO.. we are saving up for a nice sectional to go with our glorious TV. Thank god his job pays a lot. I was able to save up to get my back piece tattoo. Tattered wings with "Demon To Some, Angel To Others" written across them, a quote from the film "HellRaiser." I've wanted that saying on me since I was in early highschool. People will always judge you for whatever reason but there will always be someone that will never judge<3
As I said I've been able to enjoy myself more freely over the last 8 months. Relaxing and going out as I please. Im pleased to say that we now for the past 3-4 months have owned a 55" HD Plasma Flatscreen and is almost entirely payed off now. BUT funny enough we have no couch LOL how? We had a futon, it broke..we bought another..the bars broke! SO.. we are saving up for a nice sectional to go with our glorious TV. Thank god his job pays a lot. I was able to save up to get my back piece tattoo. Tattered wings with "Demon To Some, Angel To Others" written across them, a quote from the film "HellRaiser." I've wanted that saying on me since I was in early highschool. People will always judge you for whatever reason but there will always be someone that will never judge<3
Thursday, July 7, 2011
To Inform
When I was walking up the stairs I met a man who wasn't there..
He wasn't there again today. I wish, I wish he'dgo away..
He wasn't there again today. I wish, I wish he'd
Thursday, June 23, 2011
The Oxy High
Unfortionatly due to the overwelming conditions that run in my family I was cursed with my fair share. Not to go into uncomfortable details but my uterus and ovaries do not function properly, causing severe paralyzing pain mainly during my monthly visit. Dont like knowing about this? then don't read. Piss off.
I have chronic cysts that tent to burst on my ovaries where I've ended up in the hospital numorous times leading to heavy amounts of morphine =). Endometriosis runs on my mothers side and the doctors and I are leaning towards that being the case for me aswell. I will be getting tested for this condition(requiring minor exploritory surgery) to confirm. This condition causing crippling pain (mainly in lower back). I can honestly say I've never experienced anything more painful in my entire exsistence then my cramps. Recently I ended up in the hospital twice from the pain. I was given a new perscription painkiller to take along with the Naproxen Im currently on, which is actually a painkiller given to atheletes with severe injuries. The narcotic is Oxycodone which is just another type of Oxycotin. This apparently gives you a similar high as heroin. Now I am in no way a "for drugs" kind of person. I do not smoke, and I do not smoke weed, Oxycotin is a very serious drug. I am on this strickly because when I get the full blown pain I am curled into a fetal position clenching my stomach hyperventilating and screaming from the most brutal pain I think could ever exsist and this happens every 28 days 0_o, I've wanted to kill myself from this much pain. Doctors compare it to a long constant labour pain. So I take 2 Naproxen and 1 Oxycodone and usually I only have to take this for the first day of my period. Today was the first day trying the Oxycodone. You can feel the pain slipping away and you still feel fine.. then finally you hit the kicker. Your mind shuts off for the initial rush and you sink into a major high for about 5-10 minutes.. it feels honestly amazing. Once you come down your at a nice steady high for about 4-6 hours.
Trust me.. when you feel pain that severe.. you dont care what drug you're on as long as it makes the pain go away.
Some info on Oxycodone -
Pain relievers such as aspirin and ibuprofen work at the site of the pain to reduce irritation. Oxycodone works differently. It moves into the brain and central nervous system and binds to receptors (nerve endings) that seek pleasure-enhancing and painkilling nerotransmitters. A substance that helps spread nerve impulses from one nerve to the other. Once the brain receives the medicine's message in its receptors, the patient no longer feels the pain. The condition causing the pain does not change, but the patient relaxes and the sensation of the pain is gone.
Taken as directed, oxycodone-containing medicines generally cause few side effects.
When oxycodone painkillers are abused, their effects are similar to the heroin high. This is because each extended-release dose of oxycodone contains a large amount of the drug. It is designed to be taken slowly, not to flood the body all at once. When crushed and eaten, snorted, or injected, a high dose of oxycodone floods the body and causes a rush of euphoria. The drug literally overwhelms all of the brain's receptors that search for endorphins. A group of naturally occuring substances in the body that relieve pain and promote a sense of well being. (molecules that act to relieve pain and to produce drowsiness). The user feels free of pain, anxiety, and unhappiness. After a few minutes of this intense euphoria, the user settles into a longer period of general pleasurable drowsiness and a dreamlike state.
While this drug can be safe and effective if used PROPERLY(perscription from doctor!) This drug can be extremely dangerous and it only takes one time to abuse it and lead to your death! Please do not abuse medication.. you only get one life, dont risk it. I'm not going to lie, this high is amazing and Im enjoying every minute of it, almost the sensation of floating and it puts your mind at such ease. Me being full of anxiety and tension this really calms your thoughts. And I float off ..at least for a few hours..
I have chronic cysts that tent to burst on my ovaries where I've ended up in the hospital numorous times leading to heavy amounts of morphine =). Endometriosis runs on my mothers side and the doctors and I are leaning towards that being the case for me aswell. I will be getting tested for this condition(requiring minor exploritory surgery) to confirm. This condition causing crippling pain (mainly in lower back). I can honestly say I've never experienced anything more painful in my entire exsistence then my cramps. Recently I ended up in the hospital twice from the pain. I was given a new perscription painkiller to take along with the Naproxen Im currently on, which is actually a painkiller given to atheletes with severe injuries. The narcotic is Oxycodone which is just another type of Oxycotin. This apparently gives you a similar high as heroin. Now I am in no way a "for drugs" kind of person. I do not smoke, and I do not smoke weed, Oxycotin is a very serious drug. I am on this strickly because when I get the full blown pain I am curled into a fetal position clenching my stomach hyperventilating and screaming from the most brutal pain I think could ever exsist and this happens every 28 days 0_o, I've wanted to kill myself from this much pain. Doctors compare it to a long constant labour pain. So I take 2 Naproxen and 1 Oxycodone and usually I only have to take this for the first day of my period. Today was the first day trying the Oxycodone. You can feel the pain slipping away and you still feel fine.. then finally you hit the kicker. Your mind shuts off for the initial rush and you sink into a major high for about 5-10 minutes.. it feels honestly amazing. Once you come down your at a nice steady high for about 4-6 hours.
Trust me.. when you feel pain that severe.. you dont care what drug you're on as long as it makes the pain go away.
Some info on Oxycodone -
Pain relievers such as aspirin and ibuprofen work at the site of the pain to reduce irritation. Oxycodone works differently. It moves into the brain and central nervous system and binds to receptors (nerve endings) that seek pleasure-enhancing and painkilling nerotransmitters. A substance that helps spread nerve impulses from one nerve to the other. Once the brain receives the medicine's message in its receptors, the patient no longer feels the pain. The condition causing the pain does not change, but the patient relaxes and the sensation of the pain is gone.
Taken as directed, oxycodone-containing medicines generally cause few side effects.
When oxycodone painkillers are abused, their effects are similar to the heroin high. This is because each extended-release dose of oxycodone contains a large amount of the drug. It is designed to be taken slowly, not to flood the body all at once. When crushed and eaten, snorted, or injected, a high dose of oxycodone floods the body and causes a rush of euphoria. The drug literally overwhelms all of the brain's receptors that search for endorphins. A group of naturally occuring substances in the body that relieve pain and promote a sense of well being. (molecules that act to relieve pain and to produce drowsiness). The user feels free of pain, anxiety, and unhappiness. After a few minutes of this intense euphoria, the user settles into a longer period of general pleasurable drowsiness and a dreamlike state.
While this drug can be safe and effective if used PROPERLY(perscription from doctor!) This drug can be extremely dangerous and it only takes one time to abuse it and lead to your death! Please do not abuse medication.. you only get one life, dont risk it. I'm not going to lie, this high is amazing and Im enjoying every minute of it, almost the sensation of floating and it puts your mind at such ease. Me being full of anxiety and tension this really calms your thoughts. And I float off ..at least for a few hours..
Friday, June 17, 2011
Celler Door
"Suddenly there came a tapping, as of someone gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door..."
When moments of pure reality kick in, or is that insanity? Do you let your mind sweep you away. The doors open and you stumble down onto the darkened cobblestones only to lead you forward, deeper into your unknown. What awaits us? What is there to find? If you could get lost inside do you think you'd ever find your way back out? I often pounder my thoughts. I sit and I think, about nothing inparticular.
A chronic day dreamer, to get lost in myself. Is our dreams reality and when we are awake is this the fake? Maybe our dreams are simply another realm. I would gladly get lost in my dreams but of course, we always have to wake up.. dont we?
When moments of pure reality kick in, or is that insanity? Do you let your mind sweep you away. The doors open and you stumble down onto the darkened cobblestones only to lead you forward, deeper into your unknown. What awaits us? What is there to find? If you could get lost inside do you think you'd ever find your way back out? I often pounder my thoughts. I sit and I think, about nothing inparticular.
A chronic day dreamer, to get lost in myself. Is our dreams reality and when we are awake is this the fake? Maybe our dreams are simply another realm. I would gladly get lost in my dreams but of course, we always have to wake up.. dont we?
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